Why I Stopped Being Vegan

9/7/16



I'm bracing myself for my first ever hate comment with this post...

And you're probably thinking, "but Kelly, didn't you just start being vegan?!" Well, yea. And as much as my heart and soul wanted to be vegan, my body wasn't having it. Every body is different and for some (maybe most) vegan changed their body in a positive way. My body was fighting against this change and I couldn't take it anymore. For months and months I've tried to find the perfect vegan way for myself and it sadly just wasn't working out for me. While I'm still staying away from red meat, pork, and dairy (aside from the occasional pizza) I've added chicken back into my diet. So therefore - no longer vegan.


I learned through all of this that my body needs some lean protein. I wasn't getting nearly enough protein from the few options I had. I couldn't get the right amount of protein without consuming way way way too many carbs. I figured all this out by tracking my macros on the MyFitnessPal app, and I was exceeding my daily carbs, even with working out! I know the whole protein debacle is a big battle between vegans and non-vegans and I will tell you that from my experience and for me, there is not enough protein. I thought for sure I'd be ok but unfortunately that was just not my experience and I changed up my foods in many different ways over the months and it never worked out for me. Once all those carbs started packing on the weight I knew something had to change.  For my body, this is the fastest way for me to gain a lot of weight very quickly. So I made the tough choice to no longer be vegan so I can get the protein I need and drop these 9 pounds I gained. 


I feel awful about it because I was doing this for the animals and now I just feel guilty and like an asshole. I will still be making conscious vegan choices often, but eating up tons of mock meat is not a choice I want to make anymore. I still very much support the vegan lifestyle, I'm just not living it right now. And I of course felt obligated to come on here and share this since I've been so open about transitioning to vegan to begin with.



I've had a lot of big life changes this year and I'm incredibly overwhelmed by them still and I realized that I was very over stressed about making vegan work for me. I tried, but I just couldn't handle another big change. Not right now. 


Ok but now having said all that... here's a quick 1 minute video I made of "What I Ate Today" a couple weeks back - all vegan!  oh the irony...




here is the 1st video in a new "One Minute" series! whether it will be what I ate, what I did, or anything at all - 
I want to make fun short one minute-ish videos! Let me know if this is something that you like :) 




I hope I'm not disappointing anyone. I'm just trying to do what I feel is best for me day by day. 

xo 




Fuck It, I'm Done.

8/19/16

I started the week off planning to film what I eat all week, and make a post two days ago about getting on board the Freelee 30 day recipe situation.... but, I can't. I'm just so over food right now, it's stressing me out! Let me explain. This is about to get deep. And probably all over the place because I'm just gonna run with it and let it out.



Food and I have a love/hate, up and down relationship. It's often controlled my life for my most of my life. I've been overweight, underweight, obsessive, diet pill junkie, laxative junkie, starved myself, overate, you name it - if it has anything to do with an unhealthy relationship with food, I've been there. And I'm exhausted. This plan and that plan, this new fad and that new fad. I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE. 


I go through these phases where: I spend all of my money on food. I go to the grocery store every.single.day. My fridge, freezer and pantry are always stocked and stuffed. And it's not just at home, my work desk drawer is always loaded with snacks, and I take up space in our small fridge. I spend most of my free time watching food videos on YouTube or scrolling through food Instagrams, or digging through Pinterest for food food food!  


While I've always been off and on like this - this has really started to take over me the last few months. And if we're gonna get into psychology, I can pretty much guarantee why. This year has been... there's not even a word for it. A nightmare? My life was so unexpectedly flipped upside down, and I've continued to feel tortured basically til this very day. I tried so hard to keep it together and build a new life on my own, but I'm starting to think that was really just being thrown into survival mode. Now I feel like the walls are cracking and I'm losing control of who I am. And I guess putting all my energy into anything related to food is my way of holding it all together. Why food? I don't know, probably because I was a fat kid and have always turned to food in distress. 


I'm done following plans and programs, I'm done falling for any "hot new diet trend". I don't want to keep forcing my body to eat what a program is telling it to eat. I want to listen to my body intuitively and feed it what it wants when it wants - while vegan. So I'm sorry to those of you that were looking forward to me recapping the 30 days of Freelee's plan (as I showed on Snapchat - mskellylouise), I'm still going to be sharing bits and parts of my vegan journey in blog posts and in videos, just not under any plan.




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I dunno guys, I'm just sad lately. I'm really broken still. I'm so heartbroken and I still cry a lot and I'm still confused and I'm just really stressed and kinda lost I guess. A lot of shit went down recently and I feel like all the progress I made this year went backwards and I'm just really down lately. I'm trying to stay on top of the promises I made for myself with this blog but some days all I wanna do is just sleep and cry.




Top 5 Gym Essentials

8/16/16

I've finally been consistent at the gym again. Besides just wanting to be healthy and fit and have a stress relief session a few days a week - going to the gym is much more enjoyable when you have some of the tools to make it easier. Of course, your phone and headphones are number one, I don't even need to put those on the list.







1. Good sneakers! Whether you're lifting or doing cardio, you want to make sure your foundation is supportive and comfortable. Nothing exciting about shin splints and heel spurs. My favorite brand is Asics.



2. Lifting gloves - this is good for free weights, ropes, kettlebells, anything you need to grip, you want to keep your palm protected and some weights have a textured handle that I personally find kinda painful to grip. I have these white Nike ones. 



3. Comfy clothes that make you feel good! - loose fitting tanks and cropped pants are my fave.



follow me on snapchat :: mskellylouise



4. Expandable waist pack belt - to hold your phone, keys, cards, etc. I personally have never been a fan of those phone holder things that wrap on your arm, my arms have always been too small to hold it comfortably. I love this belt because it keeps my phone out of the way when I'm lifting so I can still enjoy my music without getting annoyed. 



5. Apps! There are so many I feel like they should have a post of their own.
    ::Sweat With Kayla
    ::Blogilates
    ::My Fitness Pal
    ::7 Minutes Workout
    ::Tone It Up
Honestly, the list is endless. Find one that works best for you, there's millions!




These are the few things that have made all the difference in my gym experience! 



What makes your gym sessions more efficient? 
Do you have a favorite fitness app?


xo





My Baby Had A Birthday

8/15/16

On Saturday, August 13th DeNiro turned 4! I honestly can't believe that it's been four years already. It legit feels like I just picked him up at the shelter. He was just a tiny 3 month old baby when I took him home. I'm so thankful for this dude, at the end of every bad day (and there have been plenty!) he is always there to cuddle with me and make me feel loved. It's been a rough four years and more specifically past six months and he was right there by my side through every single tear that fell on my pillow. I wish he could understand how much he means to me. 


Enjoy with me, a "Monday Dump" of his adorable little face! 




























DERP.


If you follow me on Snapchat (mskellylouise), you saw he got his annual sashimi birthday dinner! 



Do you celebrate your pets birthday? 



xo


Why I'm Obsessed With Grocery Hauls

8/10/16

a haul from my IG a long time ago



When I tell people I'm a picky eater, they never actually realize how deep that goes. I've spent most my whole life being so difficultly picky that it even annoys me. I've never been the most fun person to go out to eat with because I'll say "no" to almost every single place you suggest. Sushi? nope. Thai? nope. Indian? nope. Seafood? nope. ... Pizza? depends where it's from. And I live in Los Angeles, so almost everywhere you can go to eat is some sort of trendy AF joint with some weird ass food that you couldn't pay me to eat. This is probably why I have no friends.



Since rebuilding my life, I decided to start trying new things in all areas of my life, and since I've been transitioning to Veganism, food had to be at the top of that list!  Bring in.... grocery haul videos! I.AM.OB.SESSED.  I will watch every single one that I come across on YouTube, and I'll watch all the "what I eat in a day" videos too! And the ones that are "store specific" like Trader Joes and Costco are awesome too because that just makes it even easier to get the exact item! Seeing what people are buying has really changed the game for me, I've fallen in love with some foods that I've spent my whole life gagging at the thought of. For example; Hummus. Up until a few months ago, my reaction was "barf barf barf" and now I go through a container or two a week! Currently I only like the Cedar's Roasted Red Pepper, I'm not into the other flavors yet.



Here's a few that I've watched recently. I'm not sharing these particular ones for any special reason, I honestly watch so many I don't have any "favorites" to share. These were chosen just at random :)












The second one is much longer as she goes into detail about why she bought things and what she likes to make, etc. That's another thing I love, everyone has their own style of how they show their haul. Does this make me sound really old? I kinda feel like an old lady right now being all amped up and excited about groceries. 


Moral of the story is, I love these videos because they've opened me up to trying foods I never would have before and often it's foods that most people consider basic staples in their kitchen. I've lived a very sheltered food life and thanks to something as simple as seeing what's in your grocery cart is helping me so much! Also, now I really wanna start uploading my own grocery hauls to my channel!


Are you a picky eater?  
Do you like seeing what other people are buying? 



xo






My Favorite Lip Products

8/9/16

I have a small mouth and a tiny uneven set of lips, on top of a chubby cheeked face, so I've never really been a fan of drawing attention to my lips. Which is why you will almost never see me in much more than some sort of lip conditioner. But that doesn't mean I don't have a few die hard go-to lip products!






HA! When I laid them all out for photos, I legit laughed out loud. Look at my basic ass, they're all the same color! And last week I was bitching about eye shadow palettes being all the same colors. But this is because my small little mouth can't carry a bold lip :(
Anyways, let's go!



It Cosmetics Lip Vitality :: the original one in Je Ne Sais Quoi (now they have tons of actual colors)
This has been my favorite thing ever for like two years now. I've talked about it so much on here so I won't repeat myself and bore anyone but DAMN I LOVE IT. (not pictured cuz I just ran out of it this past weekend. *sobs*)


Maybelline Baby Lips :: same story as above, mention it all the time, only love the plain one in Quenched. I can't live without it, I have one in my purse and one in my bathroom at all times. Side note- I hate all the other Baby Lips.


Best Damn Beauty Lip Mask :: oops, another I've mentioned before. See, these really are my favorites. I put this on every night and since I started using it last year, I never have chapped lips anymore, ever! 


NYX Butter Gloss Creme Brulee & Tiramisu :: the only two that I buy over and over and always have in my purse. I love the little touch of natural color and they're not sticky glosses. Ya'll already know about these popular little gems....







Colourpop Ultra Matte in Solow :: my first ever Colourpop matte lip and still my #1 homie. It's like my natural lip color with a tiny touch of pink. It's almost all gone and that's ok because this was from the first batch they ever had and I'm probably due for a new one anyways.


MAC Pro Longwear Lip Pencil in Nice N Spicy :: when MAC's Whirl pencil was all the rage, I reached for this one... by accident. And ended up loving it!


Urban Decay 24/7 Glide On Lip Pencil in Naked :: I use this one way more than the MAC one, this is the lip liner I reach for constantly. Often times I'll line and fill my lips in with it and then top it with one of the NYX Butter Glosses. 


Maybelline Vivid Matte Liquid in 10 Nude Flush :: these got a lot of hate when they came out because everyone expected them to be a liquid lipstick but they don't dry. They stay feeling like a creamy soft matte, I think it feels nice. 







What are some of your favorite lip products? 
Do you have go-to color? 


xo



No Jumping

8/8/16


"It only takes one drop to stir chaos within a body of water. One drop willing to leap against the weight of the ocean to make it rise. One drop, ripple upon ripple, creating a wave of change. Never push aside the power you hold as one." -@iamhertribe



























xo


Hearty Veggie Lentil Soup - Vegan

8/2/16

I've been making this soup over and over again for the last few months. That might sound weird since we're dead in the middle of summer. But it's quick, easy and cheap! And I'm all about those things so it's no wonder this has been my go-to! 









One of the best things about this is how much food you end up with! I have lunch for the entire week and then some. I always portion it out into my lunch containers so it's an easy grab & go every morning.




























If you're a long time reader, you know from previous recipes that I'm not the biggest fan of measuring. I like to live on the edge and wing it when it comes to throwing in seasonings. I stand by "season to your liking"!




INGREDIENTS:
Olive oil
chopped fresh garlic
chopped onion (I use green spring)
chopped carrots
chopped potatoes
chopped zucchini
1 can kidney beans (rinsed)
1 can corn (rinsed)
a few cans of crushed tomatoes
a carton of veggie broth
1/2 cup red lentils
1/2 cup green lentils
seasonings of your choice, I chose:
thyme
basil
oregano
cayenne
parsley
salt/pepper
garlic powder



INSTRUCTIONS:
start your pot with heating a few tablespoons of oil
throw in the garlic and onions to start the flavors going
add a cup of water to avoid burning
dump in all the chopped veggies: carrots, potatoes, zucchinis
let those cook together for a few mins
dump in all the canned goods: beans, corn, tomotoes
start to boil
pour in the veggie broth
add lentils and seasonings
bring to boil
then let simmer for about 45 minutes to an hour



Enjoy!
I like to top my bowl off with some fresh parsley as seen in my IG post from one of the million times I've made this soup.  And I'm enjoying this for my lunch right now as I hit publish on this post! Check it out over on my Snapchat @ mskellylouise









Do you have a favorite easy go-to recipe? 
Let me know if you end up trying this! 

xo