I Idolize Me.

I think we've all been there. Celebrity obsessed.

When we were younger, so many of us idolized the shit out of celebrities. Like we would die without them. Did we realize how absurd that was? It's sick, really. They are no different from you and me. You are a stranger to them, they don't know you, they don't give a fuck about you, truly. How can they? They don't even know that you exist.

Thankfully, I reached a point awhile ago where I can not give a fuck what my favorite celebrity is doing, or who they like/dislike so I can "stand behind them" and root for whatever they believe/choose. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. I am me, not them. I don't care if my favorite singer puts out shitty music, or can't climb the charts anymore. I don't care if Johnny Depp doesn't make the cover of People's Sexiest Man Alive, I don't care to be part of an "internet gang" of stans that spews disgusting and vile negativity to fans of a celebrity they don't like. I don't care if an artist I care for collabs with an artist I don't care for. I don't care if I enjoy Miley while the rest of the world is calling her trash. I don't care if Mariah can't make a #1 song anymore (I have 20+ years of timeless untouchable, beyond meaningful music that I can have til the day I die). I just don't give a fuck. Celebrities are no.big.deal. The way some fan bases act is really, more than anything, terrifying.

What I do care about is my life and what I'm doing. And what accomplishments of my own I'm making. No matter how big or small, or what they may mean to anyone else. I've been through umpteen lifetimes in my 31 years. Lifetimes worth of pain, mistakes, hatred, lessons... and I'm content now. I don't need to idolize or obsess over a celebrity or anyone else other than myself. I will idolize ME. Because looking back, I truly can't believe I made it. But I did and everyday I'm patting myself on the back for something.

There are people who will dislike me forever, people who will never be happy for me that I'm happy, people that will always try to bring me down, and people that just cannot let me go and leave me be. And I just don't care anymore.



I care about my daily adventures, no matter how fun or mundane, and I care about sharing those adventures with my readers. I care about my job and how much I've grown at it, and how happy I am to be part of an incredible little family. I care about constantly improving myself to be a better me. I care about continuing to grow and learn in my relationship so I can be a better girlfriend. I care about trying to eat better and exercise so I can be healthy. I care about moving forward from all the darkness behind me, blocking out any negativity and not allowing it in, so I can be at peace.

I care about my life. And I don't care if you don't care about my life. It's mine and finally after 31 years... I love it.




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19 comments :

  1. well said! I feel the same way!

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  2. Waitttt....we're supposed to care what they do??? Ugh, all this time I've just liked what I like and disliked what I dislike. lol. :) I love this post.

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  3. hahaha you clearly didn't get all that gossip mag brainwashing that i did ;)

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  4. Katie @ Tales of a Twenty-SomeDecember 18, 2013 at 10:15 AM

    well said!! Keep going and let the haters hate(:

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  5. I officially idolize you as well. It's amazing how resilient we can be, no matter what darkness life sends our way at times.
    "It's mine and finally after 31 years, I love it."


    Yes. That. Couldn't have said it better myself.

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  6. I LOVE this! So very well said. After all, celebrities are just people like you and me.

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  7. Learning to love yourself isn't always easy. Letting go of the negativity and the people who are bad for you can be even harder. Getting over past hurts sucks but in all of those things make us better people, they make us the person we love today!


    I love this post and I'm so proud of you for loving you!

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  8. Amen! You know, people say "she's her own biggest fan" as an insult, but really, if you're not your own biggest fan, then who is? And shouldn't you be a fan of yourself? I am going to proudly call myself my own biggest fan from now on, with no shame.

    - Rachel @ With Love, Rachel

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  9. Kelly! I love this times a hundred billion! After knowing you for so long I know exactly what you're talking about and it's refreshing to see that you now have the big picture in front of you because I know I do as well. Funny how when I met Pat Monahan this week I normally would have been all starstruck but for the first time in a long time I wasn't. I just knew he was a regular guy who just made it big. Now if it was Mariah on the other hand I would for sure be starstruck! LOL

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  10. Can I get a gosh damn AMEN! I love this, you're 100% right. Why should we spend out time worrying about someone else's life when we will NEVER meet them, and instead focus on ourselves... since that is something that will actually matter.

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  11. I don't get the celeb craze. Yes, I like some more than others. Sometimes they put out a crappy movie or music but I don't hate on them for it. Just wasn't my thing. So much better spending time trying to better yourself then worrying about someone else. Very well written, girl!

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  12. So perfectly said. It has always boggled my mind, especially when people try to be like the celebrity *cough* Kim K *cough*. I do not get it! You have such a great spirit, Kelly!

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  13. Umm so I love this and I love you so so much!

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  14. I think celebrity worship is ridiculous too and I would never ask anyone for an autograph even as a child. Who are they? Just a person like me. I definitely admire people for accomplishments or talent they possess but I don't know them as people. And never will.

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  15. Go girl!!

    Celebrity worship gets out of control. I just like who I like! :)

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  16. AaaaaaaaaMEN sister!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You hit the nail on the head!!!!!!

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  17. You are a celebrity to me because of this post. I idolize you.

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  18. I love this perspective. I am guilty of finding myself pretty obsessed with celebrity gossip at times, but it is getting better. Lately, I've decided to put the US Weekly down more and just live my own life... even as mundane as it is.

    Thanks for sharing!

    -Kate
    www.theflorkens.com

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  19. everyone needs to read this because IT'S THE TRUTH. it's SO IMPORTANT to love yourself and let all those who have an opinion go on about their bidness. the way i see it, everyone is going to have an opinion anyway, why waste your time trying to live up to those opinions or trying to change it? what's important is what YOU think - that's all.

    i read all kinds of garbage people put up about X or Y celebrity and man, they are INVESTED in it. i read it and i'm 'meh', it's their life...how does that impact me? IT DOESN'T THAT'S HOW.

    love this!!
    -kathy
    Vodka and Soda

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