That Doctor's Appointment

Basically, I've never had an experience like this, ever! It's been no secret around here lately that I have majorly been being suffocated and paralyzed by severe anxiety. I was so looking forward to this appointment! Was I nervous to start with a new doctor? Yup. But I needed it and I was excited. I got there early at about 1:50 and my appointment was for 2:15 but as the minutes passed and passed and passed I began to get restless and confused. I'm a new patient, why haven't they even given me my paperwork? A few minutes later they finally do, and I fill it out quickly, give it back to them and return to my seat. And wait. Time was just passing along, I had now been there for over an hour. One woman said she waited 3 hours there before. Oh hellllll no! I checked with the receptionist and asked "how long is the wait for Dr. Lee?" She looked at me like my eyeballs were hanging out and said "Umm Dr Lee isn't here today...are you sure that's who you're here for?" My immediate thought was omg these shitbags just let me sit here for an hour and never bothered to tell me he wasn't here! Not even when I signed in and wrote LEE on the sheet. Oh man...


I made it very clear that is who my appointment was with because I specifically researched him and got him from my insurance company. So, YES I AM HERE TO SEE DR. LEE! "Well, he's not here so do you want to come back when he is?" NO! I'm here now and I will see anyone, I just need to see a doctor!

I was mad. And rude. And stormed back to my seat and as the rage and anxiety started to overwhelm me, I couldn't help but think THEY ARE DOING TO ME THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF WHY I CAME HERE! A few moments later, I heard my name be called. And waited another long ass stretch of time in the exam room until the doctor came in. And I swear he was not a real doctor. If I could reenact how he examined me, it would be a comedy sketch. I've never seen anything like this. I told him what I needed and he gave me prescriptions and referrals for what I needed and I was on my way. At this point it was about 4:15, now remember, I got there at 1:50 so you can imagine the frustration boiling inside of me.

I go home, changed into some baggy sweats and got ready to take on the pharmacy line at CVS. The tech said it would be about an hour, maybe sooner. I go next door and do a little food shopping, head back over cuz the hour is approaching and it's not ready yet, 20 more minutes are needed. I sit down and wait, and wait, and wait. 30 mins pass and the pharmacist calls me over to question my scripts. "We can't verify your prescription because I just called this number and they said you were not even there today"


I tried to stay calm by simply stating "are you fucking kidding me?! I just spent hours there!" She looked afraid of me and told me to go sit back down and she would take care of it. I waited and waited and waited. Finally, after the stress of this whole ordeal had become too much and my eyes started to fill with heavy tears, my name was called. My medicine was ready. This was finally all over.

I don't know if you are familiar with how incredibly amazing the doctors, hospitals, and all things medical related are in the Boston area, where I'm from. But you get the best treatment there. People come from all over the world to go to those hospitals. I have never in my life experienced the joke that I did today. And lucky me, I get to go back next month for a follow up on the meds and some back x-rays I'll be getting soon. Can't wait for that headache.

Oh and the icing on the cake of today... I have been anticipating the Tone It Up Retreat soooo badly! It's so close to where I live and I was certain it would be fairly affordable. Wrong. The details were released and it's almost $2,000, due up front. That absolutely crushed me. I had been looking forward to it not only because of all the amazing things about it, but I felt it would have been incredibly beneficial to my mental health. I complained to the boyfriend about it and then let it go. I can't go so get over it. So hours later as we sat waiting for my medications, I was scrolling through Instagram and saw this...




I showed it to the boyfriend and was like "well, guess I really can't go now, it's already sold out, so fast!" And he got really really sad. And told me he was gonna surprise me with purchasing it for me because he knew how badly I wanted it and how healthy it would be for me. I got tears. I love him.

I am beyond exhausted from all of this. My soul is drained. Time to pop a miracle pill.


Bye!

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29 comments :

  1. :( :( UNLIKE!!!

    oh kelly, that sucks so bad. i hate it when that happens! i've actually yelled at an entire floor of staff for such poor bedside manner and treatment of the patients.

    here's hoping that things have calmed down. i would be calling for days before the next appointent to make sure he's there!

    -kathy
    Vodka and Soda

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  2. Ugh that's the worst, I would have totally cussed the receptionist, doctor, and anyone else out I could find. It makes me rage for you my dear, it really does! I hope your miracle pills work, I know you need relief.

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  3. ugh so sorry you had such a crappy experience! I know hospitals/doctor's offices are swamped or whatever but nothing is more irritating than being at an appointment for a million years, especially when you're there because you already feel like crap! and sucks about that retreat too. so expensive but I guess why not if people are willing to pay and it sells out that fast? ugh. hope those pills help you out!

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  4. Omg. I'm so sorry, girl. What an awful experience, especially when you are there for the very opposite of an anxiety ridden experience! I'm hoping you feel better ASAP. Sending positive thoughts your way!

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  5. That definitely sounds like a tough experience- I'm so sorry you had to go through it! Hopefully your miracle pill works, and hey- its the weekend now!

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  6. Ahh that is so frustrating I am so sorry! How sweet of your boyfriend though I hope you get to go on that trip!

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  7. The tone it up retreat was ridiculously expensive...I mean it's a weekend of working out there is NO way it should be $1700 or whatever it was. I also think they should have had a special California price for people who love near the area and don't need the hotel!

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  8. That is the absolute worst! I'm so sorry!

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  9. Aww, hugs! What an awful experience at the doctor! That was really thoughtful of your boyfriend; it sucks that the retreat is sold out though. :( I hope the medications work well for you and that you feel better soon!

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  10. I also wanted to go to the Tone It Up retreat. I had NO idea that it was going to cost that much. I felt like asking, "Can I give back my $1,200 in 'swag' and just pay you $600?" especially since I would have had to cover air fare from AR to CA. :( It was really disappointing. That's SO sweet of your honey. :)


    Also, you might look into finding a new Dr. office if they're that disorganized. I swear, I would have come unglued. The very last thing you need to do to an anxious person who is waiting to talk to a Dr. about anxiety is GIVE HER ANXIETY! I'm so sorry, dear.

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  11. UGGHHHH! You need to give that doctors office a bad review on Yelp or something. That's horrendous. Also, I have had a million bad experiences with CVS pharmacy. I switched to Target over a year ago and I have never had an issue--well, maybe one time I had an issue but they took care of it for me within ten minutes. Also, if you have to wait, at least you're in Target.

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  12. Nah uh. I would not be going back there. They might be busy but it sounds like they can't even stay organized and keep track of who their patients and doctors are! That's insane.

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  13. So sorry you had to go through that and with CVS not getting it together. Hope the meds help. Hugs!

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  14. yea I'm def gonna be checking up on their schedule before i go back!
    thank you ! <3

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  15. well, what i didn't include in this post is when i went back to my seat after finding out he wasn't in, i called my boyfriend and i did not respectfully step outside to make the call, i stayed right in there and when i was talking to him i told him she was a little bitch and i wanted to punch her in the face. and everyone in there heard me. i was so mad!
    thank you! <3

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  16. exaclty, it really is the worst. places like that are where you should feel most comfortable.


    thank you! <3

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  17. they did mention to keep a look out for spots that may open up. but i'm pretty much just banking on going next year instead

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  18. i actually thought for everything it was including was not a bad price, i was most upset that it was all due upfront. they only payment plan option was "bill me later" and they don't approve everyone. but i absolutely agree they should have a different option for local residents!

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  19. Dude. Do NOT go back to that fucking place!!!! Find somewhere else!!!! Those assholes couldn't even verify that you were THERE when the pharmacy called - you gotta be KIDDING me! And like you said... you had written down the Dr's name on the sheet when you signed in... why wasn't that noticed right away by them?! I work in a hospital... shit like this... not cool, not cool at all. They need to get it together.

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  20. Oh my gosh what a sucky day! I have had those before... where so much stupid stuff goes wrong. I hate that. And it sucks that you can't go to the retreat. I hope you find something else really cool to do, that doesn't cost so much, to somewhat make up for it.

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  21. That SUCKS. I cannot even imagine how you felt. I would've been roaring as well! I hope that the next appts you have go well. I have Kaiser and 9/10 I have no problems with it and they've actually been pretty awesome with me... still, I haven't brought myself to go back to a therapist.

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  22. :((( sorry you had a bad day at the doctors. I'm glad that you have your boo to be sweet to you. <3

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  23. ugh, that sounds like an awful day. so sorry that all happened, and i hope the medication work their magic!

    xo. jenn @ hello, rigby!

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  24. DO IT!!! You will be so happy you did :)

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  25. Girl, the last time I went to therapy, the woman's office was so hard to find my anxiety increased tenfold before I even saw her. You'd think they'd think about these kinds of things considering what kind of clients they're dealing with.

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