Bye Booze

As I sit here writing this post right now, I'm on the start of day 5 of no alcohol. You may have seen this tweet on Monday, and I know in blogland everyone is probably gasping like "whaaa?! no alcohol?! you're breaking blogging rules!" But here's the thing, I'm an addict and I always will be. For me, there have always been moments of drinking casually and then some moments of drinking everyday. It's like an on/off little situation.  It took me saying some really awful things to/about my boyfriend recently to realize that hey Kelly, you're in the everyday phase and it's getting to be too much and you're being a huge dick. So I'm choosing to stop (for now or forever, I'm not sure. Ok probably just for now, for awhile). You also might be thinking, "but you just made that bar!" Ugh, I know. And it was an investment for sure. But now it's just an expensive decoration, I guess.

yes, that's a basket of nips.

If you spend some time around these parts, you will know what I've been going through lately. And alcohol is really just not a good mix, especially with the medications I'm taking. And I can tell you for certain that one of these medications mixed with a few hours of boozing it up on Saturday was absolutely what gave me the power to say the awful things I said. So when the pharmacist tells you, "do not drink alcohol with either of these medicines", you should listen. Does this make for some boring weekends with friends? Probably. Especially when you've already invited them over this weekend to watch the fight and ... we have a bar! Is it annoying to be the sober one when everyone else is drunk? Yup. Will I miss wine with dinner, or a gin & tonic when I get home from work? Of course. Was I drinking everyday? Basically, sometimes I'd throw in a day off. Was I shitfaced everyday? Nope. But that doesn't matter. Right now, I cannot drink on these meds and I really need to put my focus towards other things. Happier things, more fulfilling things. There were days when I would come home from work and I would rather make a drink than go to the gym. That is not at all helpful to my health and fitness goals. And I've mentioned several times here that one of my biggest goals for 2014 is to get and stay healthy. I'm a little behind, but late is better than never.

In the past, I've come across some judgmental little blog posts about how some bloggers "drink too much" and  bla bla bla judgments bla bla bla. Don't worry friends, I will never turn into that person. First of all, I have no fucking right to. And second, what other people do is none of my business and quite frankly alcohol is a lot of delicious fun, I just have to remove it from my life right now. I will not call this getting sober or getting on the wagon and if I have a drink in a few days, I will not call it falling off the wagon or even failing. Because if I can go a week without a drink, that's the longest I've gone in -I don't even know how many- years, so bra-fucking-vo to me! Honestly, I never thought I'd make it five and half years drug free, so maybe I'm already not giving myself enough credit with this alcohol deal, but it is a bit different, so we'll see. One helpful little jump for me is that my sister and mom will be here in about 5 days, so that'll be a swift 13 days of no drinking right there. Boom.

Happy Thirsty Thursday ya'll! ;)

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21 comments :

  1. Good for you for doing what's important for your health and your family!

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  2. it doesn't matter what other people think - you just have to do what's good for you! that's all the matters. but yes being around drunk people when you're the only sober one can be kinda annoying. good luck!

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  3. You're one strong woman, my friend! Good for you for having the balls to say "hey self, cut the shit". You'll be great, I just know it! <3

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  4. I think taking the time to process, realize, and put in to action what your body needs right now makes you incredibly strong and successful. It's a hard thing to do when you realize that you need to make changes, but I'm sure that they will pay off for you. I've had to make similar decisions at different points in my life and I've always come out better for it. :)

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  5. Can I have your bar cart then? Kidding ;) I hear you, I had to cut out drinking last year when I was on xanax. It seemed like it would be harder than it actually was. You're strong, obviously. You got this.

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  6. Katie @ A Beautiful Little AdvApril 10, 2014 at 9:05 AM

    You are strong. I'm proud of you for putting this out there and for knowing what is right for you! You got this.

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  7. Good for you, girl! I'm proud of you for doing what you feel like you need to do and looking out for yourself! :D

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  8. I think you know best what is important and healthy for you and for that you get my full support. I come from a line of alcoholics and I am always on alert if I drink to many days in a row. Good for you for know when to pull back.

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  9. Good for you, Kelly! I've seen what drugs can do to people so to be 5.5 years clean is amazing. Kudos for making a choice for YOU and YOUR health, even if it's not the norm. Good luck <3

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  10. I'm doing the Whole30 challenge in May, and I"ve been really disheartened how some of my friends have been like "you aren't going to drink? You're crazy! That's not fun!" But when I drink, I go crazzzyy (I'm on meds, too) and I'm tired of letting that control my life <3

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  11. Good for you! I can tell you that I dont drink but all my friends and my boyfriend does and I go to the bars with them. Im still able to have fun so its not going to be all that boring. I had to quit drinking out and about after falling on my face at the bar...embarrassing enougH!

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  12. I've definitely made sure that I'm not drinking every day. I went from never being able to, to it being so casual, that I need to make sure that I only drink when I really want to and it's not going to dehydrate me, or make me feel bad. Do what you gotta do!

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  13. Tbone and I gave up alcohol this past September and it's not that bad... It's harder for him but we haven't had any set backs... You can do it!!!

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  14. Good for you girlie! and I will say your bar looks amazing!!! Expensive decoration sure, but life is short haha.

    Kudos to you on your journey and I'm sure you'll do fine <3

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  15. You have an amazing group of people who support you and are going through some of the same things as you are! Proud of you for taking this step to focus on your health and well being! Keep it up, you're awesome!

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  16. You are so strong for realizing what you need to do feel right! I gave up alcohol for Lent one year and the first week was a little tough but then it was smooth sailing after that. And eventually I found the humor in the being the sober one in the room. You're gonna be great! :)

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  17. I think what you are doing is great! Congratulations on all these years drug free!!!

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  18. Loving the bar! Loving that you recognize a problem and fix it!!! *hugs*

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  19. Way to be strong, Kelly! You're an inspiration. Congratulations! :)

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  20. I absolutely respect this decision, I have done dry months before and I always feel so much better with myself and my sleep improves drastically!

    xx Kelly
    Sparkles and Shoes

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  21. May i ask where you got that addable art piece? I need it!!

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