An Update On: My Enemy


It's no secret that this blog took a dive these last few months. And it's also no secret as to why it did, because I share those things with you, ~friendship~. Some days I get all amped up to write a post and I have it all said out in my head and then I sit down and open this up and I just don't feel like it. I get lazy, I guess. And since I've wasted all those great post ideas away, I figured I would at least let it be known how I've been doing since those sad ass deep posts I was doing about two months ago.

I'm better. Not entirely back to my spunky self, but a whole lot better. I'm still in a bad mood a good chunk of the time, but I'm not physically ill with anxiety all day every day anymore. With a mix of medication and some consistency in my exercise routine, I've been able to begin digging myself out of that hole I was suffocating in. After my sister's visit came to an end, I was really very sad. I cried a lot for a lot of days and nothing the boyfriend would do could cheer me up. I started to hate everything. I hated that I moved here, I hated that my boyfriend moved here instead of me moving home to him, I hated work, I hated eating, I hated going to the store, I hated everything. I'm on the tail end of all that sadness and anger now and I'm starting to feel brighter again.

I'm disappointed in myself that I had so many happy goals at the beginning of this year and I allowed myself to waste half the year already (yea, hi it's June!) and accomplished pretty much nothing. I could easily let the rest of 2014 fly on by while I just lay off in the distance. But I don't want to. I want to keep growing and I want to keep getting brighter. I've let too much darkness settle around my bubble lately and I'm really just over it. So stay tuned while I allow the clouds to clear and let the sunshine in!


posts mentioned:
My Enemy
A Season Of My Life
my CA story
the bf's CA story
2014 goals


photo credit: myself
photo edit: myself

15 comments :

  1. Kelly, glad you are starting to feel better! I can understand where you are coming from with the "nothing accomplished" bit... I can't believe we are in the 6th month of 2014 either.... let's try and stay motivated and get something checked off our goal lists :)

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  2. the fact that you're admitting to what's going on and that you're trying to change things is considered a big win in my books. i'm glad you're starting to feel better, though. don't focus on your disappointment; instead, focus on what you can do now and going forward :)

    -kathy
    Vodka and Soda

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  3. yes please, i really need the motivation!
    i miss you! xox

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  4. thank you kathy! <3
    as simple as it may seems to some, that is actually really really great advice! and i'm working on it :)

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  5. I was that way for a while here in WV. I hate it and nothin would cheer me up. I'm slowly getting better. It takes time.

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  6. hang in there its easy to get lost in sadness, Im glad you're taking steps to get back to a brighter place.

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  7. Glad to see you are coming through. The year may be half over but there is still half left! Everyday is a day to be better!

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  8. You GOT THIS BOO!!! & I'm so happy that you are starting to feel better!

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  9. I totally know how this feels, and I'm so glad that you're starting to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel! It can be so hard but I try to find a happy thing in each day, no matter what. You got it girlfriend :)

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  10. Every day is a new day! Take them one at a time! :D

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  11. It's so incredibly easy to get down in the dumps. But, I've learned that you must take it day by day and realize that the negativity only makes things worse. I'm glad you are on the mend. Here's to hoping that things continue to get easier for you each and every day. I'm here if you ever need to talk! For me, keeping the negative people out of my life has greatly increased my happiness.

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  12. don't dwell on "wasted" time because it's not wasted if you are able to pick yourself back up and appreciate everything in a whole new light. chin up lady :)

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