I debated with myself on doing a Halloween look for my channel, then I debated on what I would do. I played with some things and posted them on Instagram [here here and here] but then decided on doing something colorful and pretty... a mermaid. But my poor planning skills killed that idea when I went to the store twice for fishnets (to make scales) and forgot to get them, twice. I then decided on a unicorn, same color concepts but less of an effect and that's ok, something simple. I played with that look twice before I sat down in front of the camera to start, it was then I decided to take the look a different way than what I had thought, and ended up not happy with it but I went with it and this is not even a little bit the point of the story. I'm just building you up I guess.
So as you may or may not know, the camera I currently own is incredibly incompetent when it comes to filming. It shuts off, it drains the battery, it over heats, it doesn't auto focus well enough, it's a goddamn nightmare. But I go with it. So this past weekend with this unicorn look and this camera, it took me about 5 hours to film. I had to keep stopping to let the camera cool down, had to stop and let the battery recharge, etc. (Which made my lighting change and my makeup to start wearing down but whatevs). Moral of this part of the story is that A LOT of time and frustration went into just the filming part of this Halloween look.
But then it was time for the fun part... EDITING! I love the editing part so much. When I got out of work yesterday, I couldn't wait to start editing it. And it was perfect! Besides all the clips I had to cut out because of camera issues, I managed to put together a video that I was very happy with. I finished at around 10:30 last night and I was SO EXCITED to upload it to YouTube! And then.....
So I thought....
"oh ok it needs me to take the SD card out. That's fine, I didn't even know it was still in there"
AND THEN EVERYTHING FUCKING VANISHED.
Something was wrong. It wouldn't let me save it out of iMovie, at all. I made sure all the clips were imported off the SD card, but 90% of the clips were missing when I took the SD card out of the computer. WHAT?! How is some of the video still there but some of it's not? Some at the beginning, some at the end, some in the middle, it made no sense! And no matter what I did, it wouldn't take. I tried and tried, I started to panic, I started to get mad, I needed to focus and figure this out and I focused but there was nothing I could do. Something was wrong and there was nothing I could do. It was ruined. The whole video was ruined.
In that moment, I felt really set back. I felt set back to miserable "everything bad happens to me" Kelly and I cried. I worked so hard on it. I was so excited about it. I'm trying not to cry as I type this. It's just not fair because really, every time I try hard for something, every time I think I'm moving forward with my happiness, every time I try to just do something for ME, something goes wrong. It's literally the story of my life.
Losing this video is just so incredibly deflating. I'm having thoughts of just not even bothering to move on with YouTube now. Because honestly, this is not easy. I have a full time job and a life to live outside of that, I started to do YouTube to help with my stresses and anxiety and to give myself a hobby, something fun that I could enjoy. But so far, it's been a nightmare. The first video did the same as this with filming, the camera is just UGH. And the second video, the GIVEAWAY, I was completely out of focus the whole time and had no idea because ... this camera UGH. And now everything that went on with this third video. Like really? Really? I started this to help my moods, not to add to the problem!
I have my eye on the camera I want that won't give me these stresses but I can't afford it right now, but it will be the next big purchase we make. Because as much as I want to give up right now, I'm not going to. All this bullshit aside, I really love doing this. I have a list of over 30 videos to do. I'm not stopping now. But with a new camera, how can I know that the above issue in iMovie won't happen again? I don't even know what's wrong so I don't know how to avoid it in the future. Does anyone have any idea???
As for this unicorn video, although I can't upload it directly to YouTube or save it as a file at all.... it does play in iMovie. The only thing I can think of as a way to still get this video shown, is to film it playing in iMovie. How low class is that? Ha! But I just really don't want this to go to waste. I was way too excited about it. What do you think? Should I do that or just brush this one off my shoulder and pretend it never existed?
Quite honestly, I think Apple did it. While I was editing, the OS X updated and that's the only thing I can think of that would have done this. That makes no sense to me either but I just have no idea. All I know is that the video will never be on YouTube as intended and there isn't a shot in hell that I have time (or would even want) to film this all over again.
So do I upload a "video of the video"? Or nah?